Be still

The last few days have not been easy.
Mother's day was an emotional day for me and my sisters. We felt lonely without our mom there to celebrate. Then something out of the blue happened, We got a call from the hospital and they told us that my dad had been in an accident. We found out when we got there that he had been walking on Saturday night and was hit by a car. He is in serious condition in the ICU, and we aren't sure how long he will be in there. It could be weeks or months before he is able to go home. He will probably need rehabilitation for a long time. I am trying to stay focused on the present right now and not think about the future too much. I am also really struggling right now with being positive that all things will work for good. I know that my hope and faith will endure, I have been through the deepest of valleys in my life with the death of my mom. I just wonder how to stay positive, and feel like I should look forward to tomorrow when it seems as though things just keep getting harder. But, I see signs all around me that remind me that in the deepest valley, and the roughest storms I just need to have faith in my Father in Heaven who loves and cares for me.
The Freeway that I take to get downtown to the hospital has a huge sign on the side of the road that says : Psalm 46:10

That verse says: Be still and know that I am God.
That verse also hung on the wall of my mom's family room. The room where she spent the last month of her life lying in a hospital bed. The room I spent a lot of time in, staring at that sign while my mom slept. Be still and know that I am God. Psalm 46:10
It has been a source of comfort to me.
I will try to remember this during these times when I feel like giving up, and wanting to be angry and sad.

This song by Avalon is helping me too.


STILL MY GOD
by Avalon

Up and down like the tide is moving
In and Out we're in motion
And the ocean pulls us under
And even there you're found
YOU never change so I will Sing:

If I'm standing on a mountain
or drowning in the sea
If I am filled with hope
Or crying out for mercy
If I'm singing Hallelujah
Or scared to make a sound
If I am learning how to walk
Or when I'm falling down
I'm saying you are still my God
Still my God.

In a world where so much seems uncertain
You remain both for the strong and broken
No matter where we are you are never far
And nothing changes who you are

If I'm standing on a mountain
Or drowning in the sea
If I am filled with hope
Or crying out for mercy
If I'm singing Hallelujah
or scared to make a sound
If I am learning how to walk
or when I'm falling down
I'm saying you are still my God
Jesus, You are still my God.

You were , you are,
You will be forever,
You were, you are,
You are God.

Be still and know that I am God. Pslam 46:10

Blessings,

Angie

Our Hope Endures

I took the kids to the park the other day, it is by the beach. They just couldn't resist playing in the sand, even though it is not quite warm enough yet to play in the lake. I did let them check the water temperature by wading in with their bare feet. They can't wait for it to be warm enough to go swimming!

I have been enjoying a new CD that I bought last week, it is Natalie Grant's Relentless CD.
This Song really touched my heart yesterday as I was thinking about the impending first mother's day without my mom, and also 4 months since court for Kaydee and still no news. But, my hope will endure!

Our hope endures
by Natalie Grant

You would think that only so much could go wrong.
Calamity only strikes once
And you think this one has suffered her share
Life will be kinder from here

chorus:
Sometimes the sun stays hidden for years
Sometimes the sky rains night after night
When will it clear?
But our hope endures
The worst of conditions
It's more that our optimism
Let the earth quake
Our hope is unchanged

How do we comprehend peace within pain?
or joy at a good man's wake?
Walk a mile with the woman whose body is torn
with illness, but she marches on?

Chorus:
Oh 'cause
Sometimes the sun stays hidden for years
Sometimes the sky rains night after night
When will it clear?
But our hope endures
The worst of conditions
It's more than our optimism
Let the earth quake
Our hope is unchanged

Emmanuel God is with us!
El Shaddai, all sufficient!
We never walk alone
This is our hope
But our hope endures the worst of conditions
It's more than optimism
Let the earth quake
Our hope is unchanged

Blessings,
Angie

Spring Sunset

We enjoyed a beautiful evening, and I thought I would capture the beautiful colors of a spring sunset as seen from my front yard.

Spring Sunset

Too many to fit in one post I guess, I love the colors!
God is the most beautiful artist!
Thank you God for the beautiful world you have given us to enjoy!

Happy Birthday Kaydee!!!!!!!!

We celebrated Kaydee's birthday on Friday night. I made a homemade card for her, and we all enjoyed a Dairy Queen ice cream cake. I included the picture from last year when we celebrated Kaydee's birthday. I never would have imagined last May that we would still be on this very long and interesting journey. We sure hope that soon Kaydee will be home and celebrating everything with us! We can't wait to be her family.

Dear Kaydee,

We hope you had a wonderful 5th birthday. We are very excited that soon you will be home with us and that we can celebrate many new and wonderful things with you as a family. We love you very much.

Love,

Mom, Dad, Hailee, Jordan, Rylie, and Emilie